The Dream

I put a picture of Mary Magdalen on this post because she is my saint and she choose me when I was baptized in 2004 and she guides me in life and she is a huge part of my life!

Last night I had a dream. It was not just any dream but one of those dreams that wake you up with a smile and feeling like you just witnessed something huge and profound! I woke up and am still in complete shock. I wrestled in my brain about the need to post it here and not in my private journal and yet I want to share it because its that huge.

At 4 A.M. I looked at my phone to see the time. Isn't it funny how I have a old fashioned clock radio next to my bed and I never have the correct time on that thing as i keep unplugging it. This my dear friends is called women spider webbing :) Its when women tell a story and branch off like a spider web does...OK back to the story. I seen that she (friend) called and called her back and she need a friend and i was blessed to be there for her. I then fell back into a very deep sleep.

That is when the magic happened. I believe God woke me up for all this..... (I can hear my friend Ashely and son for that matter laughing at my mystical emo brain right now) OK....So, Off to innocent dream land I went and I slept for about two and a half hours.

The Dream: This is HUGE....

I dreamed that I was standing facing someone (at this time I choose not to reveal that person) and he was looking into my eyes the way he does with so much love that its impossible to describe. He reached down and kissed my forehead very lovingly and protective and I smiled and looked up in his eyes and kissed him. In the lips very soft and gentle. It he then put his arms around me and responded and took over the kiss....:) Then we stopped....and I looked in his eyes and they said "This is it".....:) My hands distintavly went up to his face and I held them there touching his face and looking into his eyes. We did not speak any words much the same way we do now. We do not need words....and never will.

I then woke up with a feeling of calm and peace

Isnt that grand to wake up in the most perfect moment? I woke up and I rememberd the dream with clairity of it really happening. I never do that in dreams or hardly never. I have had a few like that in my life. I felt a feeling of love and protection.

God uses dreams to teach and show us things. When I went through a very hard time years ago and ran away to another country God used dreams before I went to tell me NOT TO GO...and TURN BACK and WARNING....I remember those dreams....and many times he uses dreams to tell me to keep going ...Move foreward and BRAVO Cheryl...This is such a good dream of what my future will hold. And it will be FANTASTIC.

Now the emo part...:) ah......................wow............Im stary eyed.....Will this come to pass? YEP O......When? Don't know is not my timing and thank goodness I dont have to stress on it.

Am I happy...YES!

Ok.....More will be revealed.........

Hahaha....None of you will know who is this? Its my secret and my mountain mans (Mountain man is a name I use for the man that is my soul mate and partner and will come collect me some day.

Music & Cheese!

I am in a odd sort of mood today. Not a bad mood and not a excited mood either. Just a mood of reflection and peace. Its snowing today and very dark and quiet outside. I am home in my little room job hunting and listening to music and just having a quiet day. I noticed this weekend a few new things about me. One being that I can enjoy all things British again. Music and cheese and people! I started going to a new church and today the music leader was British and talked about how he just got home from the UK! Last year that would have made me feel sad and I would not have gone back to that church. (I just divorced a man who was British) Today I smiled and loved his singing! and thought just now 'Wow, you are healing"!!

For some reason that still comes to a shock to me at I can and did heal! After three years I never thought that possible for me. I thought i was just going to be sad forever and never listen to Eric Clapton again! Actually I loved Erik Clapton and the Beatles before I met my ex husband.

What I'm trying to say is that I am not associating things that I love with my past relationship and that is just amazing. I am taking what I like and leave what did not serve me well into my future.

If I can help anyone reading this that is I have met alot of single people who have divorced and all told me that you do heal and will smile again and believe me I was a total skeptic! I would smile all the while thinking "Yea right" Well..YEA RIGHT...They were correct.

There is life after DIVORCE!..

Create Yourself In 2011!!!

Last night I was on a Conference call with my mentor and he said something interesting. I always say this year that I am "Finding Myself"! and yes that seemed correct as I am changing alot and yet it never felt right when I would set down and think it all out. Finding what? Was I lost? Where was I? Where do I start to look? and on and on.

Last night he said its not about finding ones self! Its all about "CREATING YOURSELF" and because im a artist that hit home for me as last January I was somewhat a blank slate and I began to create Cheryl using some of the old parts. When I first met Michael he said I was like a race car that was messed up and needed a rebuild! Did I mention that I have the best mentor in the world?

How have I worked on this creation called Cheryl last year? I have done so much. First I changed the way I talked and stopped being negative and then I found some great friends! I started working on the spiritual side of myself and then I started being very healthy. I eat only organic and am wheat, white flour and white sugar free, limited dairy. Very limited meat and cheese. I have not had fast food sense February of last year! No ice cream or candy or chips or anything bad. No alcohol in over a year. No pain killers like aspirin etc. No meds at all in a year. I take vitamins and supplements! I started working out and lifting weights and walking and jogging and then joined the YMCA. My new goal is to join a dance class of sometime once I get a job and know my hours of work.

I picked a mentor who I trusted and who I actually listen to. Do I like the things he asks me / and others to do? Some of them I love and some take discipline to do them. Its not hard stuff and I just make it hard! Like he wans us to drink water first thing in the A.M. when we wake up and to eat some fruit or veggies. I wake up with a "water":(.....serious and I do it because I know its good for me and I feel so much better drinking more water. Then he me drinking water all day long. Its a choice weather I do it and the consequences of not drinking water are that my skin feels dry and I stop loosing weight and feel awful.

This is 2011! Lets all of us go out and Create a different and new person. Take some of the old and leave the rest in 2010! Carolyn says "DONT BE SORRY BE DIFFERENT" I love that! and Michael says "JUST DO IT" and "KEEP GOING"...

Keep going.....and going!

Im excited about 2011 and had a awesome 2010!

PS. Happy New Year!