Faith...What is faith? I just Googled it and got the following: Complete trust or confidence in someone or something. Strong belief in God or in the doctrines of a religion, based on spiritual apprehension rather than proof. Faith.....wow...... The fires this week in Colorado Springs which has been my home for the last five years before two weeks ago I moved to California, have rocked my world. I have been weepy and have had a sad feeling all week for the people that have lost their homes and for my friends that were scared and had to leave their homes. I have heard from them all and none of them have had fire damage! I am so grateful that they were spared! Faith.....You know...I lost alot of faith in the last two months. I had some people that judged me unfairly in the name of their religion and brought up the past and do some pretty nasty things to me and I just said "no more" and went anti religion for the last few months. In moving back to California and seeing the miracles in my life, my three kids and then the fire thing...I have began to find a new faith! A few people have said to me "wow, you got out of Colorado in time"...and I have said "I would rather be there helping.....and yet today I have had to relook my spiritual path as I am a very spiritual person and have alot of intuition and yes faith. I have to see it for what it was. I fled Colorado Springs because of the real fire that was coming and because I believe that a personal fire was coming and I was led out! I was out of work and out of money and there you go. Did my higher power take me out of Colorado because of the fire? No.....He took me out because of the emotional fire that was coming and he has a great plan for me in California. A grand great life ahead of me.... Do I see it now? NOOOO Faith.... Where am I with religion? or God. I am praying again. I am believing in God and the universe and the ability for direction and to know that there is a plan and its good. Am I a Christian? No.....I am a child of the universe and Its good and I do not need to label myself. Is my faith renewed? Yes....yea....

VANITY AT ALL COSTS?

Last week I got up and just before I got my tired bod in the shower I looked in the mirror and there it was..NO NO NO....The top of my blonde hair was a dark blonde mousy streak / or the dreaded roots. I was going to Sallys and playing kitchen beautician and doing a good job of it I might add because one of my girlipoos told me how and its cheap to do my own bleach / sun streaks etc. Yet, that is not the point of what im going to write about here. Vanity? Maybe. I have that streak of dirty blonde and little GREY hairs. Not many mind you (see denial here) and for that im most grateful to the universe! Yet I have a few around my ears and I am not ready to deal with that. :) and yet I just said it here for the world to read "CHERYL HAS LITTLE GREY HAIRS" There universe...Bla ....nanny nanny nanny...You can not bother me now that im in acceptance mode! Ok...Now what? Most of my girlies say "Go to Sallys again silly" ..... The last time I put that bleach on my head it burned my scalp and burned my eyes and the burn was not a real burn just a feeling and yet it made me feel like I was nuts to do this to my body. The stink and ammonia in my nose was just dreadful and felt so TOXIC! I eat organic, 99 percent vegan 99 percent of the time! I use things like organic healthy dish soap to clean and wash my clothes in and only put minerals on my face now and then I go and put this toxic and i mean TOXIC nasties on my head near my brain for vanity? And ladies I have done a survey and talked to men and they do not like / and I mean almost all of them / like 99 percent do not like hair dye and they do not like lip stick. Dont write me and tell me about your man who loves your sexy red lips because I said 99 percent! :) And 99 percent hate and I mean hate with a capital H ....Hair dye...and they do not mind grey and love that you look they they do because they are not going to Sallys and dying their hair. So we are doing it for ourselves...and the men who do not realize we dye and bleach our locks... So now what for this girliepoo with the vanity issues? Well I have not made a decision. I do know i will not dye my hair in anyones house again and expose them to toxic stinks! So if i do then i have to dye in the garage :) see how this will be a pain? I do not hang around people who would even let me be toxic around them. Here are my choices: 1. Let it all grow out and be mousy and grey streaks around ears: NOT......NO....... 2. Use peroxide on roots to keep it a bit sunny...doing that now and it wont help grey but its ok as long as its a bit lighter. Warning: test this out as some become a nice orange. 3. Use the sun and lemons. I may do this next week .... 4. Use a natural product from whole foods and go darker. Like a henna? Any other Idels will appriciated. In saying all this I have seen alot of ladies natural that are my age and they are simply beautiful. I do know that I will give this all up maybe at retirement? maybe not....... Or ....I may cave and back at Sallys this California Girl goes!