All which yields, is not weak...~Phèdre nó Delaunay

Today I woke up with a lot of "stuff" in my head and have been reading and writing and feel better. I have this need to know everything and to control everyone and when I let go I am at peace..

BURNING AWAY THE BAD

I am doing alot of hard work right now. Yesterday, was the great work of controling my emotions and not letting them go mad! I had a block of about fifteen minutes at work where I just let it go.....not a good thing. I was not on the phone but i let the after feelings linger the whole day. My boss must have heard me because he called me from upstairs and asked if i was ok and I said yes that i was just having a bit of a temper with my computer and he came down and put on the heater and I felt that people care to stop me in my tracks.

I am much better today.Are my feelings the same? YOU BET. Its how I handle them is the key to my work the next few months. I feel anger and sadness and I do not always like my teachers help / work. Work is what it is...work. Working on ones self for improvements is not easy. My mentor said its like searing with fire and then polishing. I am in the searing with fire part :) and that is the temper yesterday. I remember a few good lines and am reminded of them. Nothing changes...nothing changes. I am about change. My attitude is good right now. I am blessed beyond what anyone can imagine

Safari

Spring is here in Colorado Springs. My life oddly is going with the flow of the seasons. I was in the winter of my life the last few years. Cold, dark, gloomy yet mysterious and unknown.

The last few months i have now been in the spring of my life. Full of color and new growth and crisp and clean and sunny and like Colorado Springs little bits of winter can still creep in. In Colorado we can have snow in Spring and cold days and then the next day is sunny and nice.

I read a book each and every morning "Simple Abundance, A Day Book Of Comfort and Joy" By Sarah Ban Breathnach. The book is a journey of becoming your self, your real self...Your authentic I had no clue who Cheryl was! Serious. I was a wife who wanted to please at all costs and am a Mom and a daughter and a sister and a friend......Yes, those things are the best part of me and yet the last few years I became lost.

I am today on a safari :) The word safari means journey and many times people safari in the dry season of summer or for me in the dry periods of life in isolation or in the dessert of my life.

Have a great day everyone!

Let Your Self Go.....

"It's all right letting yourself go, as long as you can
get yourself back."

Mick Jagger

It's sunny and beautiful here in Colorado this A.M. I am at peace and just relaxing and playing and reading. How blessed I am to have this morning all to myself in a warm house full of good ladies.

I have lost 20 lbs sense last November. I am changing my diet a bit to lower the carbs I eat and add more healthy oil. I have been eating 1 T of butter mixed with canola oil and 1 T of EV olive oil but my skin seems dry lately so im going to add more oil and less carbs for a few weeks. I want to loose 10 more lbs by June 1.

I am still working with a life coach and a nutritionist. My nutritionist is also my boss at work so it makes it nice. We are putting exercise equipment at work in the back office next week so that we all can exercise on our breaks! Again. I am blessed beyond what I could have imagined in a job.

That is all but wow. Its alot!!

God Bless You All