I had a very challenging ......OK I will call it what it was "HARD AS HELL" few days and guess what? I got through it without chocolate and a few tears but the key phrase here was that I did get through it.

I let myself go into a drama filled place full of people who disregard me as a human. Period. Key word here is "I" as in I let myself go there knowing the outcome and consequences yet there I go......Into the pit of darkness and then I call up "people" and say "HELP"...

My helper in life showed me how to stay out of the darkness and what it feels like to be in the light or with sane good positive people. and for Cheryl today it no longer feels right to be with anyone or anything that is bad. Yes, we use words like bad. Call it what it is......

Now, the hard part of my work is that I want to help the people who are in the pit. The pit is what I use to describe a place of negative in our life and people who are constantly in their own private pits. I do not mean life challenges like disease or death, that is NOT in a pit. I mean unnecessary drama and sin of all kinds. Negative thoughts or behavior and false fear.

Good Stuff :)

Weight: I am doing well on my eating plan or I call it a life plan. I was feeling very tired and awful last week and on the weekend I bought some spinach to make a spinach salad and in a few days I started feeling better. Food is fuel! What a concept. If we put high grade fuel in our bodies and keep the fluids up then it runs wonderfully.

Finances: All good here. I have to get my car transmission replaced this week and am grateful I had just the correct amount in savings. God is good......

New Blog Name

The last two week I have found myself gong off track a abit and while i was not a runaway train I did have to get back on track. The first thing that I did was start questioning my church yet not my faith. What I discovered is that God is not there to entertain me and for me to expect this is wrong. I love my faith and when I try to change that I get all miserable. Yes, I would love to attend a church full of people and fun and etc but I can find that elsewhere and not change my religion doing it.

The second thing is that I go a bit off the rails with my food / diet. I am not on a diet and started thinking along those lines. I eat for life. I eat normal but small meals and I have things i need to not eat often and I have rules like I am not to eat a nude carb :) Sounds all shady! A nude carb is a carb alone and not mixed with a protein. I ate m and m's peanut for dinner and decided that was a carb / protein combo and my nutritionist decided that was not the case. He stressed last week that I need even more protein and more exercise with weight lifting and to NOT change the plan to suit me and NO substitutions. ok Back on track with the food thing.

The budget it good. My car broke down and the bill will be 1000 next week and I can pay for it! Again......The budget it good.

Now the hard part. My attitude sucked last week. Badly. I was disrespectful to a person helping me and more important I was disrespectful to myself. I was negative and sled right into victim mode. Hence........the new title of my blog "PUT ON YOUR BIG GIRL PANTIES AND DEAL WITH IT".......Which is the last thing my mentor in life said to me before he hung up last week! ICK......Now i have a choice don't I? I can hear a "Excellent".....Or ......My choice. I choose "excellent".

Now the fun part. I got in my creative mode last night and cooked. I made Chicken cacciacorte and my three room mates and myself had a girl friend time. Girls are good! Women are important to me and vital :) But....I need the men in my life to say "Deal With It"......Ballance.