I feel that today I am to write in my blog but have no idea what to write. I am sitting here at seven A.M. totally confused but in total peace. I have no idea why I'm here in Colorado or what brought me here. I just know who brought me here and for that I have peace. I am a bit afraid and a bit confused and a bit excited and a bit happy and a very little bit sad and a bit anxious and a bit peaceful.

I am thinking that for the last four years i have not been nuts and making up things that have happened to me odd and then again I question this. I know that there are others out there in Colorado and California and the whole USA rooting for me and I feel so blessed by that and in awe and humbled. Who are they? Why? Why do they care about me who has been a two year mess?

Who are all of you? And why is there so many of you? Who is a part of you? Darlene? Betty? Carolyn? Danette and the girls? I could go on. Kim? Hope so as i miss you. Val? Margarete? and my sweet Heather? and all the other beautiful girls that touched my life. My work mates? Jennifer? George? Jeannie and Brock and little gizmo? :) and that terror in Lizas place :) ....lol Gosh you scared me....

I don't make sense. I don't understand.

I can only listen to Carolyn now. "All will be revealed" "You dont need to know the answers right now" "when the time is right".....

I am on a path and journey today. I am not alone but have total control over my path. I can choose to go back to Calif and live or I can choose to stay and find Cheryl and find what God wants for me. I choose to find Cheryl today. I choose to find that mom and wife and girlfriend and daughter and sister and auntie.